I always try to make people happy

When someone's upset, crying, posting on their blog about their life or whatever I always try and do something to make them feel better. I can't stand to see friends like that, because I know what it's like to be in their situation, so I help them. I wish someone would do the same to me when I'm upset too though, but no one really bothers. My friends do care to an extent but just not enough to talk to me about it and try to make me feel alright you know?

eheheheheheheheheh

Today me and my friend Mai went to the city to eat and we stopped by maccas to give this funny guy called bruce a piece of paper with her number it for fun and he texted her saying he wouldn’t mind getting coffee with me eheheheheheh HE’S SO LOL AHHAAHAHA but it’s funny ok yer

formal photos

sorry they're not good photos, no one really took any this time so there's only my shitty webcam ones :-)

why do I always buy too many dresses

I have two formal dresses and they are both nice so I don't know which one to wear. This happened last year too and I had to choose which dress to wear like 10 minutes before I left..
THEY ARE BOTH GOOD SDLSKDJksjhdskjdhskjfsldkfj I'll upload pictures of them on tumblr later tonight when I don't look so gross because I just finished work

if you want smooth hair

I suggest palmolive multi repair shampoo and conditioner! It's only $4 but don't be fooled by the price it is actually really good, my hair is so smooth. I only bought it because I didn't have enough for my $15 shampoo but this palmolive shit is aaamaazzinggg
yeah just a suggestion if your hair is dead like mine :)

I think I love shoes

These past two weeks I've already bought two pairs of shoes, and I want so much more skdjslk it's draining my money but they're all so nice!! Today I spent $190 on a pair of heels but it doesn't matter too much because I like them :-)

The heel is 16cm heheheh

this girl on tumblr is posting about her birthday

and how her mum was really nice to her buying her all this expensive perfume, and how her dad paid almost a thousand dollars for her birthday dinner.
Then I remember what happened on my 16th birthday this year.. The only present I got for my birthday was from my dad, not my mum, or my brother and sister, not even from anyone at school, just my dad. I don't mind though, because I doubt anyone would've remembered if my birthday was on a school day anyway.
My mum just argued and screamed at the whole family all fucking day. I spent almost the entire day crying in my room while my brother stayed in his room playing cod, and my dad watched tv in his own room. My mum slept the whole day and when she wasn't sleeping she was yelling at me for no reason. She said things like I shouldn't have a birthday, it should be a celebration for her instead, because she was the one who gave birth to me. I have scars on my body from my birthday, which now that I think about it was just dumb because they won't go away.
well hopefully next year when I turn 17 I won't have to deal with her bullshit.

I just made a hole in my wall

fuck. it's small but it's still a hole and it stands out so much omg. I threw a brush at my wall and it actually made a hole.. what do I do I need to hide ittt

*u*

I'm so happy right now!!! I think it's because I had a pretty good day today, I went to a photoshoot and ate chocolate aaalllll day. School's tomorrow and I'm actually looking forward to it even though I hate school, because I haven't been there in a whole week since we had work experience!
aaahhhh and these nice anons on tumblr and formspring are so sweet, made my night <3

finished my sister's keeper

it was so sad, I cried sooosososo much even in the bits that aren't supposed to be sad.. I think I'm just being over emotional lately because I keep crying slkdjslkdj
It's a good movie though I definitely recommend it if you want to have sore eyes from balling your eyes out :-)

I just want to be happy

My life is steadily getting worse and worse and I hate it. I feel so alone, and there isn't really anyone I can talk to about it because no one cares. It's kind of depressing to know that you have no one who's there for you when you need them, you know? I don't like talking about this to people because I feel like I'm annoying them with my stupid problems.
I kind of don't want to sound like a depressed cunt so I'll just stop lol

I hate being put on hold

I was on hold for 20 minutes and when they finally answered, they didn’t speak at all and after a few seconds they hung up on me. Now I have to listen to their annoying repetitive classical music for another half an hour :-(

shopping!!

Today Georgia and I went shopping in the city after work in the city! We didn't have much money so we just bought these Wayne Cooper shoes that were on sale and peanut butter cups omnomnom

I do not understand

why people eat so slowly when they’re around other people. The people next to me bought this slice of cake fifteen minutes ago but they haven’t even finished half of it yet. They’re probably having a on race who can finish it slower or something I don’t know but it’s so retarded because when I’m around other people I still eat as fast as I usually eat lolololol

I have weird dreams

I feel really awkward talking to someone if I had a dream about them the night before, especially if it was a pretty fucked up dream. Last night I dreamt that one of my friends from tumblr was over at my house acting kind of strange so I kicked them out and they came back in as a year 7 girl who told me one of her cats liked me
now every time they talk to me I can’t help but think about that dream omg

:-(

Tonight's just one of those devos nights where everything's making me sad especially people on tumblr. I hate having such low self esteem sometimes, today I was scrolling through tumblr and I saw people that are so insanely pretty that I feel sad even looking at them T^T

every single time I try to diet

all of a sudden I’m surrounded in delicious food that I just can’t not eat, so I eat it and I’ll be all like ‘oh I’ll just start my diet tomorrow’ then the next day there’ll be more good food and instead of dieting I just end up eating a lot more

fuck what to do

work experience is next week and I still haven’t found a place to work at yet. The place I was going to decided they don’t even do work experience anymore so if I can’t find another place by tomorrow I have to work at the school library for the whole week

what do I dooooo

love love love driving

it's so good being able to drive! even though I'm only on my L's and I haven't even driven that many times, anddd I have to drive a massive car, it's still so exciting and a lot of fun. I can't wait til I get to drive by myself yay heheheeh

what is wrong with me

I think I'm over it but then when I see you it's like
*u*

my hair is so dead

I want to cut it all off so that it's really short because it never grows :(
this is kind of what it will look like if I cut it, does it look bad LOL

weeeelll I don't really tell many people about this but since not many people read my blog I'll just write about it :)
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lalalalalalala deleted this because I realised how stupid it was to have this here

online shopping

I have so much power over my brother when it comes to shopping online. I’m the only person in our family who can actually buy things so he has to be really nice to me and listen to whatever I say ehoeheoh this is great

sorry!

I haven't been on this blog much lately because I keep forgetting about it, and my life isn't really interesting anyway.. I'll be posting more from now on heheeh
no one even reads this anyway so I don't even know why I made this post

LOL

I don't think I've been to a full week of school this whole year. After I got kicked out as a peer support leader earlier this year I couldn't be bothered going to school anymore so sometimes I'd get there at recess because I just didn't care. I hope that doesn't mean my attendance isn't satisfactory enough to continue onto year eleven omg