I'm so stupid.

don't even want to wake up tomorrow

I have an english essay due and stupid me decided to go to the library with tiffanie to study for a calculus test on friday instead of doing my essay. ms cairns said on monday that if I don't hand it in on wednesday she's gonna be really disappointed but I can't even think of anything sigh I don't want to let her down though!!! ugh this sucks :(

shit

If only my parents had forced me to study and go to tutoring when I was a junior just like everyone else at my school, then I wouldn't be so screwed for school right now. I've kind of gotten so used to to not trying hard and being lazy that I can't really stick to a good study habit egh it's too hard for me. I wonder when it'll finally hit me that if I don't work hard now I'm going to end up 'not getting a good enough atar and will subsequently fail at life'

 seriously to all of you who are still juniors please pay attention in class now and learn the basics of everything so that you won't end up a lost cause like me ^_^

this man is seriously the epitome of my brother oh my goodness AND WHAT'S WRONG WITH EATING HEAPS AND HAVING MORE THAN 12% BODY FAT HUH HUH UHUHUHhHh

oh my god just stop

my dad cut up a fucking apple for himself to eat since he had no dinner (keep in mind it's his fucking birthday) and my brother goes up to him, tries to take the apple, and says 'wtf it's for me' 

umm

can you not be a dickhead for once in your life faggot lol

thank goodness there's only 1 year and a few months left until I can finally leave and never see him

ok thisis really pissing me off

my brother has gotten so cocky lately and he's decided it's okay to be rude to everyone else. like yesterday he was like to me 'what's wrong with your nose look at me i have a normal nose what's wrong with you' and today i forgot but i was driving and he was being really mean so i hit him l o l
AND AT LUNCH TODAY
AND YESTERDAY
FUCK
every single thing i eat he'll be like 'lol you're only gonna get fatter i can eat whatever i want i don't lose weight'
and when i took a purposely bad photo on our new ipad he looked at it and went 'fuck you're ugly'
it's not only to me, just now he went into my dad's room and was like 'where's the macarons why did you hide them??' when they were a present for my dad not him. he came into my room and was like 'why'd you eat them?!??' oh my god i can't wait until i'm rich enough to move out forever lol

happy birthday mum and dad!!!

went to pancakes on the rocks today to celebrate my parents birthday. I love you mum and dad hope you continue to have a great day even though our new car got a bit scratched somehow...........  :-(

I SHOULD PROBABLY DIET NOW LOL

I went into my followers list and looked some blogs and omg there's this one girl who posts really depressing stuff sometimes and I want to tell her to not be so upset because she's young and shouldn't be so worried but I can't because that's weird so yeah I hope she sees this and thinks this is about her so she can know that she is not alone and someone cares yes ok 

don't be so hard on yourself ^___^

just as I was about to deactivate facebook tries to convince not to by saying people will miss me and will no longer be able to talk to me..... it's probably true no one's going to talk to me now HAHA livin da alone life

going to deactivate facebook

I don't even use it and it's just a reminder of how sad my life is these days:

• people making fucking annoying relationship statuses 
• facebook even tells you to write on the walls of people getting in relationships??!
• everyone's posting statuses saying 'watching the dark knight rises!!' 
• and I'm just here like lol haven't seen any movies in forever 
• I want to go watch a movie
• :(

LOL doing some hard work in english

ffs

• I spent $300+ today buying presents and stuff for my mum and dad's birthday tomorrow so now I have no money
• went to markets after work and shopping and there was a 30-40 yr old man there who literally stayed near me for 20 minutes because 'i'm sexy and i have a nice ass' uh ok 
• my brother was being a dick as usual paying me out in as many ways as he possibly could
• I have to spend the day with him tomorrow kill me now plssss

sigh

I was in class the other day and I was talking to someone about how I saw their boyfriend when I was at the library. the girl next to her heard me and said 'why were you at the library?' as if the library was some kind of forbidden place I couldn't ever go to because I don't look like someone who would actually do some work. everyone thinks I'm some stupid bitch who can't do anything lol ok thanks

subject choices

it just hit me that subject choices for year 12 are due today I really need help on what to do!!!!!
right now I'm doing:

• ext 1 english
• ext 1 maths
• chemistry
• biology
• visual arts

I'm definitely keeping ext 1 maths and biology but I have no idea what to do with the rest.... chemistry and art are so hard to me, chemistry because it's confusing and art because I have really bad time management and I'm so ceebs for it. with english it's either stay at ext 1 or move down to advanced, and with maths I'm either going to stay at ext 1 or maybe do 4u?? I'm not smart enough for 4u though, and people have told me to stick to 3u or even drop down to advanced sigh

we seriously need more time for this, year 12 is more than 8 weeks away why is it due in now?? 

:( I only just uploaded it and it someone already disliked it sigh oh wellllll

i hate mufti days

I never know what to wear and I always end up wishing I was in uniform LOL. uni is going to be so hard, you have to find a new outfit pretty much for every single day. jessica and I tried making a video today at lunch but it was soooo bad so we're probably not going to upload it.. OH AND TO THE GIRL WHO I RECORDED BY ACCIDENT AHAHAHA I think she thinks I'm a creep because yesterday at the art show I asked her for a photo omg if you read this sorry HAHA ok

how to tie a bun - anon request

kind of getting better at not being so awkward in videos HAHA here you go

so many people have their future sorted

people already know what they want to do in uni, and I'm just here like l o l I don't even know what I'm doing next week let alone the next 5 years of my life
I need to find something realistic that I enjoy soon so at least I have something to aim for in life

help

this song has been stuck in my head for more than two days straight
like I woke up this morning and didn't even have to think about it or anything it was already in my head

library after school

today I went to the library after school with tiffanie and we actually surprisingly did a lot of work... there was a guy there who did the lamest thing to get my number omg HAHAHA he got his calculator and wrote a fraction wait there's a photo on tumblr of this

yeah he did that but put his number at the bottom LOL so lame but it was funny! I'm going to go to the library more often now, it's the only place I'll actually do something because you can't talk and there's no distractions :-)

this guy tried to run away with someone's bag today

On the train home at yennora someone stole this woman's bag and tried to run down the platform with it. The woman tried to chase him, she was full screaming and running but wasn't fast enough to catch up. But then omg out of nowhere the train guard was all like heeeellllll no, he got out of the train and pretty much fought the other guy for the bag!! Omg it was such a heroic and exciting thing to do if only there were more people like him *u* I really admire those people who are brave and have the balls to do things like that, I think it's so cool HAHA
Oh shit 4% battery not enough to get home with noooooo

my tutor is such a bitch

it was his birthday on saturday so helen and I made the effort to go around the city this afternoon and buy him a cake because cakes are delicious who doesn't like them?? but when we gave it to him he just said 'oh thanks guys I'll eat it later, do you want some?' and of course we said no because it was his cake. he just left it there the whole lesson and even after the lesson he left the room and the piece of cake was just sitting there.....
I mean he could've just at least eaten a little bit to show that he appreciated the thought, but no he didn't even care at all ergh he's such a dickhead

IT LOOKED SO NICE TOO AS IF YOU COULD RESIST!! the people at the cake shop gave us a free sign to stick on it too omg if someone gave this to me I would be so happy

i'm such a hypocrite

I tell people to eat healthily and stuff but when I go out I always buy the most unhealthy food
I always tell people to stop being so sad and to be happy but I'm so miserable
and when people are putting off doing work when they said they would I tell them to stop wasting their time but then I just sit there doing nothing
 ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

omg

I refreshed my blogspot to see this!!! even though it's not that many views, I still think it's pretty exciting that my blog actually finally got to 50000 heheh
:-)

I think a 'weaboo' is a japanese wannabe or something idk

ok I don't know why I got so pissed off at this, but I really dislike people who have so much pride in their own race that they believe they should be the only people who can speak that language or like their music or whatever. just because someone isn't japanese or korean (it tends to just be these two for some reason) doesn't mean they're restricted to knowing only english(or whatever language they speak), or only liking english music 

I think I'm just really annoyed at everything today don't mind me LOL

met up with my sister today

she was wearing hiking clothes o m g complete with a hiking bag and hiking boots. why.
well anyway!! we went to eat at zilver for yum cha, but we couldn't eat much because we had to hurry up to be on time to this contemporary dance class. I don't dance much especially when it comes to contemporary and jazz and stuff, I don't know I just felt really out of place and uncomfortable today. after the longest hour and a half of my life, we left and went to star city where we ate more LOL... we had ice cream and ate dumplings from din tai fung mmm. we also went to adriano zumbo, which no offence but I think is so overrated, they didn't even have any nice flavours and the lines were so long wtf??
anyway it was a pretty fun day catching up with her and oh an anon wanted to see a photo of her here you go:

she hid behind me so you can't see her hiking clothes HAHA 

need a new job

considering applying for:

• woolworths
• target
• starbucks
• a cafe in the city
• somewhere with nice work uniform pls
• chatime!! I don't know any taiwanese though so that sucks 
• or maybe I can be a waitress that looks okay

I like having a job!! it's fun plus it means I don't need to ask my parents for money, but I'm really sick of maccas so I need to get out of there asap LOL. does anyone know a good place for a 17yr old to work? anything but fast food.. and how do I write a cover letter without sounding cocky and up myself ahh finding a new job is more complicated than I thought..

my brother is the worst

I lost this jumper which I bought for $100 a while ago and always wondered where it went, and turns out my brother gave it to one of his friends (who is a guy wtf why is he wearing a girls jumper anyway). so me wanting my jumper back decided to message this jumper theif but then he deleted my post!!!!!!

ok my brother's friends are all like what, 13-14 and they're so fucking rude, I don't understand why they keep adding me. his other white friend called me ugly and asian and said mean shit about my mum too. my brother just laughed and didn't do anything because he's such a little bitch. I hate all his friends oh my goodness I just want my jumper back

yum macarons

I'm recovering finally!! today after school I went to the city with tiffanie and helen to buy lunch and macarons. I ended up spending like $40 but it was so worth it because everything was delicious mmm

ahh today was a great day :-)

ugh

I was so sick at school today, and I barely even did anything because my eye wouldn't stop watering and I couldn't concentrate. this morning I even called up my mum before I got home to tell her I'm sick and that I don't want to go to school, and as soon as she got back she screamed so fucking loudly and complained about me for like 20 minutes sraight. she doesn't care at all if I'm sick, like someone could stab me in the stomach and she'd still make me go to school. she even decided to cancel buying a new family car because I was sick. people always complain about asian parents being strict about school, but my mum is so much worse she's fucking insane

finally getting a new car

after drving around in this:

(ok i lied it's not this car but it is pretty much just as shit ) we're finnnnalllyyyy getting some new one I don't know what it's called but it coincidentally has my initials on the back so yay! I'm pretty excited because I get my P's soon  and my parents said I can drive it whenever I want :-)

soz

I didn't know some of my readers were this...... impatient HAHA I TRY TO POST AS MUCH AS I CAN!! glad you guys like to read my blog though :-)

holidays are almost over cry

here is a compilation of some of the food I ate this holidays (pls dun kill me)

lesson learnt: don't try to diet in the holidays, it will backfire on you and you will fail

anyway this holidays turned out better than expected! I thought I'd be home everyday being miserable because I have nothing to do, but it ended up being fun :) got to catchup with people I haven't seen in ages, and I also met some new people too which was good. my sleeping pattern is so bad now though, I woke up at 5pm today because I was too sick to get out of bed early oops.. I hope I'm not sick tomorrow though because even if I'm dying my mum will make me go to school anyway f u

lol

so this guy I hated for the longest time texted me today,
him: hey you free tomorrow or monday?
me: yeah how come
him: oh i was wondering if you wanted to chill
me: ok sure
him: do you want to come over? we can watch movies
me: i don't really want to go to your house sorry
him: baahahaha okay nevermind then I'm busy, next time

so just because I don't want to go to your house you're suddenly busy? are you so self absorbed that you don't realise how much I disliked you because of what you did?
ok m8

oops..

this holidays went by so fast I swear we only just finished school a couple of days ago! the only productive things I did all holidays was go tutoring a few times and to the gym too, but other than that all I've done is be lazy at home and go out a few times my bad....
if anyone in my year at my school is reading this, remember at camp when we had that study skills guy come and talk to us? well for those who weren't there, he made this really smart girl go up to the front and tell him how many weeks before exams she studied and she said 5 weeks. wellllll because of that I keep thinking well if she only has to study for 5 weeks then 10 weeks is too early, and so I ended up getting nothing done LOL. this is bad, very bad.. I'm so going to regret wasting my time this holidays when I go back to school still behind on everything :(

shit day

• haven't eaten all day
• mum lost her car keys at work
• so she can't come home any time soon
• which means no food for me all day
• she disconnected my net as well
• so no net and no food 
• nothing to do without net
• I want to go out 
• but no one to go out with
• and no car
• and no net
• and no food
• omg 

how does this even happen

I was putting on my blue contact today and it just disappeared
no really like I didn't even see it fall
I checked everywhere: in my eye, down my shirt, in my hair, down the sink yes I even opened up my sink to see if it fell and it was nowhere to be seen
who knows what it could've done
maybe it leapt through time
well whatever it did this is really depressing I waited 2 weeks for them and now they're gone
:-(

I was at work yesterday and these two asian ladies came to my register and started talking quietly in chinese about what they wanted. without even thinking I said 'ni yao shen me?' which means like what do you want in chinese, and I didn't think they heard me but they did, so they said something like  'ohhh, ni shuo zhong wen ma?(do you speak chinese)?

so for the rest of the order they spoke in mandarin and I was just standing there like what have I done

just got home

a couple of my friends were in the area they so picked me up and we drove to noggi :-) I totally ruined my diet because I haven't been sleeping much, and when you don't sleep you eat more and being tired means less exercise LOL...

it was so delicious though how could you resist mmm

i need to meet new people

everything is so boring!!!!! it's the same shit every single day and when school starts again it's going to be even worse because I hate it there even more. I want to go to another state or something, or even another country so I can meet new people and it'd be something different for once. maybe I should just get a new job egh my friend said he could get me a job at noggi even though it opens in forever hmmmmmmmmmmm that would be nice

oh and by the way my blog got more than 700 views yesterday!! kind of surprised people actually read my blog yay :-)

so i've been thinking

about school and stuff I know right not again LOL

anyway so in tutor today I was thinking about the hsc and I realised how stupid the whole concept of it is. we seriously spend our whole school life preparing for it, and then the rest of our lives (pretty much) depends on what score you end up getting. I just hate the whole idea of your career and life depending on some rank you get in high school eeegh I really should've tried harder but now it's too late :-)

'r u korean'

have I gotten more asian looking recently?? because:

• people on twitter keep linking me korean people saying 'you look like her!!!'
• this guy said i look like the girl who has cancer in haru haru by big bang 
• told my new manager to guess what nationality I am and he guessed korean 'because of my eyes'
• told my korean obsessed friend at work about it and she was like 'you kinda do..'
• angelo linked me a kpop video and was like 'this girl reminds me of you!'

what is going on i am not even full asian 

new stuff!

so my contacts and naked palette came today yayayayayay after ages of waiting they're finally here!
the blue contacts I bought look so weird on me, and apparently they make me look even more asian though they're blue what. i didn't bother taking a good picture before when I was wearing them but here's what they look like:

and the my naked palette I'm kind neutral with because I wanted number 1 but I ended up getting number 2 because I was being the biggest impulse buyer ever LOL. it's still pretty good though so I'm not complaining :)
it looks like this:

today at work

me: hi what would you like?
cutsomer: can i get a large coke
me: sure that's $2.90 thanks
customer: *gives me money*
me: *gets drink*
drink bubbles overflow through straw hole in the lid 
me: *uses cloth to clean overflowed drink and hands to customer*
customer: ew she just used a cloth to clean my lid ugh such bad customer service
me: lol do u want a new lid *goes and puts on new lid*
customer: UGH DO YOU WANT ME TO TALK TO UR MANAGER
me: sure go ahead
customer: ... OK LET ME SPEAK TO UR MANAGER DO U WANT ME TO POUR THIS COKE ON U
me: err ok *calls out manager's name*
manager: is there a problem??
manager and customer have a chat
me and manager: *trying not to laugh*
me: *goes and walks off to the side*
fat bitch worker who thinks she's the best: THIS IS NOT A LAUGHING MATTER

fat bitch worker also decided since she's the best at everything to take my fucking black tea and spill it all over my hands. if i have to deal with her or any rude customers ever again i am going to quit lolol

eyeliner tutorial - anon request

it's such crap quality but hope you enjoy it, and if there's any more videos you want me to do just ask :)

oh shit

I completely forgot I had tutor homework to do and instead I spent the past hour or so making an eyeliner tutorial for an anon request ma bad.....
tutoring is so ceebs these days, I don't even learn much there because it's so hard to get motivated to do something when there's so many steps. like last week we were doing curve sketching and oh my goodness I hate doing that so much, just learning about it makes me really bored.

glad you guys liked the vlog from camp!! we thought you'd all think we're lame and boring HAHA sorry it took so long..

ok here you go

our really disappointing and lame camp video LOL


don't hate HAHAHA WE DIDN'T WANT TO UPLOAD

I feel like if anyone finds out that I have feelings for them or something idk they'll laugh at me and think I'm pathetic so I just end up liking people I don't talk to or not liking anyone at all
how to overcome this

coogee beach with georgia

this is the 4th year in a row we've gone to coogee in the middle of the winter holidays, I guess it's become sort of a tradtion. there's a pretty lol story behind why we go, but I'll write about it some other time hehehheh

ahhhh so many! well compared to Xiaxue's blog it's nothing, she gets 40000 views in one day because she's a 'top blogger'. anyway I've always wondered who reads my blog.. is it people from school, or people from tumblr, or just randoms who are interested in my boring life I WILL NEVER KNOW :(

and I also wonder if anyone checks my blog everyday LOL I was talking about this to my tutor, how I read some people's blogs every second day or so and he said I was weird.. I just find reading about other people's lives entertaining okay!! omg if he's read my blog awksssss

okay I'm just rambling on now, hope you're all having a great night :-)

long overdue camp video

omg you guys are gonna be so disappointed once you see it, I mean it is literally just us talking and being embarrassing on webcam
there is actually nothing interesting or funny about it
it's just lame LOL...

wowhohaw

do you ever get this thing where you're on your laptop on your bed making a post and all of a sudden you really look at what you're typing and the screen and it starts to hurt your eyes and all of a sudden the screen looks like it's so far away from you and sdkfldskfjdskmndskvmn i need to get away from my computer

people who like to rub it in my face that I'm single

pls

stop

it's so obvious

and it's annoying too

what r u trying to do

make me jealous

it's not working

ok

HAHAHAHA i lvoe that face

insanity!! - anon

Insanity is a 60 day work out program that's designed to give you a 'beach body' as long as you do it everyday and kind of watch your diet too. I don't recommend it to people who are lazy like me because you'll never end up finishing it. I just started it yesterday and my muscles are killing me so I didn't do today's one ma badddd I'll do it tomorrow morning!!!

if you still want to try it here's the links:

Fit Test (you all should at least try this!!)

Plyometric Cardio Circuit

Cardio Power & Resistance

Cardio Recovery

Pure Cardio

Cardio Abs

Core Cardio & Balance

Max Interval Circuit

Max Interval Plyo

Max Cardio Conditioning

Max Recovery

Insane Abs

Max Interval Sports Training

Upper Body Weight Training

and here's the schedule, good luck!!!!!

'blog about makeup you use' - anon request

I mainly just do eye make up for everyday looks but if I'm going out I'll wear more :-)

okay for my eyes I use:

• revlon colorstay eyeliner
• yves saint laurent mascara (the name is in french I can't remember)
• sometimes this korean white shimmery eyeshadow stick from this asian store in the city
• false lashes if my lashes look extra shit LOL

for my skin I use:

• bb cream, I don't like foundation it looks so cakey and bb cream just evens out my skin tone
• l'oreal mineral concealer - this is the best concealer I've ever bought because it's not creamy, it's more like a powder so I can use a brush to put it on
• finishing powder from that same asian store in the city, it's called blush osmetics they have nice asian makeup there :) it's kind of expensive though

and yeah that's it!!

so many anon requests

I'll try my best to do them all tonight ^-^

favourite memories - anon request

I can't remember but omg one time at school georgia and I didn't want to go to maths so we thought it would be a good idea to super glue our hands together and go to sick bay. they couldn't separate us so we ended up having to leave school and go to the hospital omfg HAHA aww man good times

here is a photo eheheh
http://asatays.tumblr.com/post/11607777515/we-thought-it-would-be-a-good-idea-to-super-glue

movitation yey

this is like the 5th time I've posted this on my blog because I suck so much and I can't stick to anything BUT from now on I'm going to exercise daily and eat healthily. you guys should all do it too(no you won't) I don't know, diets to me always work better when it's not just me LOL.

yesterday my brother said to me 'it's so easy being a girl, all you have to do to get a good body is not be fat'
IF ONLY IT WAS THAT EASY LOL I have no self control or discipline when it comes to dieting and exercising so getting skinnier is kind of hard... I made a bet with helen though, first one to lose 5kg wins HAHA not going to happen.

headaches all day errday

LOL o k this has been going on for like half a year now when will they stop :-(

I can't believe I was still friends with you up until now

• you asked to meet up at the city and after I waited for about an hour you texted me saying 'trackwork ceebs'
• you said 'come to cabra let's meet up' and never showed up
• you made me meet up with you at parramatta then said 'oh I have plans' and left like an hour later
• you sent things to my house you claimed you bought with your own money and made up excuses for it like 'oh I just wanted to see you!' 
• today when we got coffee you didn't even drink yours ok so what if I got a tiny bit on your forehead that's not even a legitimate reason to just fucking walk off and leave me by myself
• and you even texted me afterwards saying 'if you're not going to apologise don't bother talking to me' umm excuse me but I'm not the one who wanted to meet up with you lol get over yourself

don't talk to me ever again.