I want to have a life like forrest gump

you know how he doesn't really know what he's doing so he doesn't worry about whether he succeeds or fails

he values his relationships with people and their happiness over studying, money, and his careers (totally opposite to everyone at my school right now) but still ends up being so successful and has a pretty good life

yeah I want to live like that

lol but it sucks because being at my school I've been convinced that the only way I can be happy is if I'm successful, and the only way to be successful is if I spend the next eight years of my life studying my ass off. so basically if I fail at school I'm going to fail at life because I won't be able to get into uni and 'be successful'. 

I don't even know what i'm writing anymore dslfkjsdkfhsdl